'Acredito no amor mas disconfio do cupido, e acordar ao meu lado nao faz de mim teu marido'

     How much I love this quote, I hate to know that its true about you... and it always will be. In our case matchmaker did me no good and didn't harm you so why blame him...? It was all my foult from the start, for fooling myself that I could change you, or make you feel something... but now I see how wrong I was... Still knowing how wrong I am, I'm still hoping that someday...
    I know that I am a fool but I can't stop this feeling... even though I wish I could but loving you has taken over my life... Getting up everyday lonely and longing for you I hope that your feeling were hidden and you are going to expose yourself today...but each day I live through dissapointment, a lot of it. Each single day I hope that the magic will hapen again, like it did before... and now I can admit how stupid I acted... If I could go back in time I would cherish every second spent with you, every touch, every kiss and every single smile... because that was pure magic...it was not meant to exist, but we found it...

    Now that I think back, at all that happened between us, I can't stop myself from hoping that those little things noticed weren't just my imagination...that you really were falling, and that you really did care an that one day we would just happen...

     I don't understand when you say 'I don't care, not anymore' , have you ever cared about me enought to notice that you're hurting me... or maybe you did see... but my latest actions put us on the wrong track... and I don't know how to tell you that I realy didn't mean it the way you read it...  'bjx anjo' Those two words messed everything up that I been working for and why? And it was just and misunderstanding... I wouldn't expose myself like that, I know, I agree to loving you but I know you would not like it if I would make it pulic so why would I risk getting cought, not only by you but your friends because I know that they will let you know about everything... These two words were not addresed to you, but rather to my Cupid... as he deserved them...and you know that too... didn't you ask as well.... You did and it was the same explanation that I'm trying to convince you to... 

'Diabinho' and 'Anjo' are totally opposite of each other and you know it better then I do so you so much hatred and not even trying to listen to my reasoning...? Now I hope you undestand...and you will at some point act like it never happened, I really didn't mean to upset you...and you are the last person I would lie to...I hate when you're mad at me...

'I belive in love but I suspect the matchmaker, and waking up next to me doesn't make me your husband'

 P.S. I really hope we won't end up like this...