I feel too juvenile sometimes. As a child, lets go for it. Yes, I'm like a child.  I came to conclusion that I try to stall for time. Honestly, who wants to grow out of their safe place? It's easy to suppress everything and ease up your raising concerns, but who can ask this question themselves? Yep, I know that once you had a soft spot for sth, you just keep it, but once you lost it, its sometimes impossible to regain. And I wanna pinpoint now one thing- growing up it's a process difficult to take in. you have to orchestrate your future, but the worst is that a lot of people keep talking that your taken path has no future, no job, just nothing. My choices, my mistakes. that's the proper order. but it's only my guesswork.

and a trouble that can't be named

tiger's waiting to be tamed