20.09

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pozdrawiam tych którzy poszli na zawody , bardzo gorąco :*

zaraz tańce .

tak blisko ... :c 

Just wanted you guys to know.... 

I'm been feeling extreme gratitude these past 24 hours. Reflecting on where were at, in particular with these shows/crowds every night. The energy and love that the world has given us these past 12 months brings tears to my eyes when I think about it.

Everything has happened at such an insane speed. So much of this year has been spent just trying to keep up mentally and physically. Because of this, finding time to reflect and be present has been a challenge. I've been on some insomniac ish the past couple days, just laying in my bunk thinking while rolling around Europe in a bus. Ive been feeling that raw place in my heart, the place where good music comes from. Its the place where change occurs. There's been a good portion of this last year where I've struggled to connect with that place. The rise, the pressure, the accolades, the travel, the criticism, the skeptics, the success, the wear and tear from being on a new stage in a new city every night. Its been a lot to handle to juggle, while remaining centered. 

Looking back on what has transpired and what continues to happen every night is beyond words. Its been my dream since I first picked up a pen at 14 years old. Ive taken a very interesting path to get to this point. But I just want you guys to know that Im grateful for you. For real. Im in Zurich, Switzerland right now! Because of music!! That in itself is a fucking trip!!!! Tomorrow we perform in front of 13,000 people in an arena. I dont ever want to take that for granted. Regardless of the shifts that number takes in the upcoming years doesnt matter. Of course you want it to always increase, but thats not life. I have no idea where Ill be next year, and definitely no clue where Ill be in 5. I just want to make art. Thats it. And of course be able to perform it on a stage. That is what Ive always wanted. From 200 to 20,000, it honestly makes no difference in the end. 

Im just feeling the moment right now and wanted to share it. I have you all to thank. I honestly dont say it enough. Much, much love. 

-Ben