I wish I had abilites of a child - believe in every word that someone close to you says. To believe when he says "there's nothing to worry about". To calm down immediately and fall asleep with a comfort in your brain. Without the pain in your heart and the mess in your stomach. Just to live uncounsciously. Just be.
I would give all my money away for this ability.
I need to get out of Lodz for some time. Too thick atmosphere. Too little space. Too much routine.
Please, God, where should I go...