How do I feel right now?!
I feel so disappointed .. Those thinks which crush me are so unfair..
Im giving so much myself here, into this family , into my work.. and I guess that rule here is
You are giving, that doesnt mean that You will get something back .
I doesnt realized that small things that Im asking about are such a big problem and difference for the others.
Maybe I should to apologize for even thinking about that?!
Is one good point in all that drama around:
I will not miss United States.. Just maybe few friendships that I made here .. thats all.
Probably in few days I'll just throw out this note.. but is just so hurting me right now.