Haven't write anything in a while. Shortly... it was a good time, happy time and sad time too.
I went back to Poland for a couple months. Had a great time. Two weddings of my friends, seeing my family and friends, playing with kids a lot... that was happy time! Then I came back to London. Started a bit difficult, with some financial problems. But I have really good friends here too. That I might not appreciate enough. Helped me when I needed. Then I found another job, flat etc, started to be happy again, feeling needed.
And now I feel down again. I think it because friends I trusted a lot (not the ones I mentioned before) disappointed me. I cared too much for them. And so many times I was trying to stop, their one word made me to care again. And I think this is a mistake. I don't know how I'm going to react next time we meet, but at least for now let's say I care less...

It hurts when you care so much and it's only one way.

Well, I'll try to remain as happy as possible, though.