What now?!

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat 
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weak 
The days I'm stronger, now what, so I say 
But something's missing 

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror 
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me 
And I just wanna scream 

What now? 
I just can't figure it out 
What now?
I guess I'll just wait it out 
What now? What now?

There's no one to call cause I'm just playing games with them all 
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone 
Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions 
I can't even get the emotions to come out 
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout 

I don't know where to go 
I don't know what to feel 
I don't know how to cry 
I don't know oh oh why 

Zupełnie tak jakby ktoś pisał to na podstawie moich uczuć.