Coffe cup Salvadore ? ...

All I feel is the entangling web of my supressed feelings...

I'm sorry for all the pain with no gain...

I beg pardon for all thoughts that brought no profit...

Excuse me for being such a bastard but life made me such a person...

Those emotions are far stronger than ones that I can freely handle...

Getting a little lost in it all  ? ... Sure I am :] I've got thoughts raging like a F-16 interceptor fighter jet engine... 



Black is not Black, White is no longer as White as it was...everything becomes bleak and faded. The monster in my head is fed by emotions...which are no longer stable enough to be sure that I won't hurt anyone.





I'm sorry for everything that had happened but since Easter there is anxiety and rage boiling inside, calmed only by the soothing love of Yours...It's not because of you that the monster is getting loose, it is me that no longer wants to hold it restrained. 

It is just the fact...that nothing is as it should be...not even me.

I've noticed changes in myself...I don't like them one bit...