raison d'etre

After ten years of compulsory education, the adults ask incessantly, 'What University do you want to go to?' and 'What dreams do you have for the future?'. But I just answer with 'I have no clue' or 'I haven't decided yet'. It's 'normal' to aim for a better high school, university or company. That's how you live a 'normal' life. That's why I always go to school, even though I'd rather game or stare at the computer all day. Because I don't want to trouble my parents, because I don't want to be called a shut-in and because I don't wanna flip burgers when I grow up.
It's a bleak future. Just living is a pain in the butt. This is my outlook on life after being a good kid for 16 years. Recently there was this book I read that said that the greatest event in life, our most important reason to live was to love. Cut the crap. For someone like me who can't even speak to the boy I like, love is nothing but agonizing. This one-sided crush is going nowhere. It's gonna drag me straight to hell.
What you truly need are friends. These few people are the only thing you really care about. I'd like to send the message to each and every friend and thank them for their support. Dear friend, thanks for the best years of my life, I mean that you have been there for every step of the way and I'm so happy to have found someone like you cause without you I don't know what I would do. Now looking back I can't regret the things I've done, just realize how happy you've made me become.




You receive what you give.