here i am, once again
i'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
broken up, deep inside
but you won't get to see the tears i cry

no, i dont cry on the outside anymore.

i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
every day of my life
my heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with

you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry
in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing

i learned to play on the safe side
so i don't get hurt.

i have myself to blame
for the state i'm in today
and now dyin' doesn't seem so cruel.

maybe i would feel better alone
or just feel something,
my heart is turning to stone..

looking for the missing piece but it was never here.

so i keep it low, keep a secret code
so everybody else don't have to know

you lose.