time heals all wounds

it's done what it's done

i will not try to live day by day and try not to be sad, because it's not easy and it never was. and it's not going to be, ever, but i won't be easy now so it won't be in a few days, in a month, it will not be much easier than is it now, because i know it and i remember how was it in 2012, and how hard it was.

i'll do the opposite thing than i always did

i'm just gonna focus on me

i want to be as selfish as i can be

i'll be probably sad sometimes there's many things reminds me about you

and it's sad because I just got used to you and all we've had

but i don't care pretty much now

today morning I wanted it all to come back right now, maybe i still do, a bit, i won't lie to myself

but i realized something today, that's only me now, and all i can do is to focus on me

i will not run away, i will not drink or get drugs or whatever you can imagine i could do

i will not go to another country or town as I wanted on the first place

i'm just gonna fucking face it, as it is

if it's a destiny like i used to believe

someday we could end up together

but if it isn't, it just gonna be better and better, because if you weren't my destiny, someone else is

i just wanted to thank you for all we've had

because for, i don't know, for one day it was beautiful

and it was the most beautiful thing i had opportunity to experience

but now, i'm the MOST IMPORTANT thing ever.

i don't have to be important to somebody, i have to be important to myself

because I always believed that life can be beautiful

And I always believed in power of love

and i won't be bitter, evil, nasty, resentful, spiteful bitch who hates all the men

i'm just going to be the best version of me

which you haven't had opportunity to meet yet