C: What's wrong, Monika?

I can't stand this question. What should I answer? Everything is wrong. I have enough.
But if everything is wrong, you should know that always may be worse, isn't it?

Take into the consideration that I have bad luck to private english lessons at home, I try to improve my English skills in other way for example through this blog.

One month ago I wasn't able to suppose that people from other countries can give me so much for free. I began talking with strange people on Skype and I think that this is amazing opportunity to learn English.

They have totally other value system than we. Better? It depends. I get to know so many different people every day. I try to allocate although moment one day for English and I can see it has so many advantages. It seems to me that this is more useful than courses or normal lessons, hm.

And you know what? I'm so proud of me. When I look back on past I can see that I did progress. One year ago I wasn't able to create simple statements. My language skills were limited to 'hello, my name is Monika! this is my mum, my brother, life is beautiful and I'm so happy' Really, I think so.
And now? I know that I still do so many mistakes. I almost don't use 'the', 'a' because I don't know in which situations it is correct. But calm down, I have all holidays to learn. I'm going to be very good in English in future. And I know I can do it.

I know my "short" romance was main reason that I started do something to improve my questionable skills... To be honest, I miss you, man. For him I was trying to cross my language borders and overcome my fear. I somehow accepted that this was just short, easy acquaintance but I know that he will be first person who I will thank you. (if I pass my speaking part of English final-exam. I hope I pass!)
This is really stupid but each time when I go to Renoma, when I stand near Renoma, whan I smoke cigarette near your home I hope to meet you. I don't know what I would do in this situation. Probably I would tell you 'hi' and that's all...

The last Saturday around 3 a.m I got message which caused that all memories came back. I was willing to do something stupid. Once again... Fortunately, I remembered about this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkaMiaRLgvY#t=106