I didn't realise that this thing inside my mind will bring me down so much

I'm at the edge

I need you so much

Your my everything basically, your different

No matter how much you hurt me

How bad you treat me...

I always forgive you, because I can't stop loving you, and I guess that's the bad thing

And you know what?

If I loose you, then i'll loose myslef even more

I'll loose myself completly

I'm scared that if I tell you all this

Then you won't take me seriously, because i'm a 'happy' person

That always smiles

But you know what?

That smile is usually fake

...But it turns real when i'm with you

It turns into true happiness

The happiness that only you can give to me

If you saw what I see

You would start to treat me differently

You would take me more seriously

You would be aware of what i'm doing to myself

How much i'm hurting myself

How much this thing inside me is killing me

All I want is to be happy again, I want to enjoy life like I used to.

I don't want to sit in this room with my blinds down anymore

I want to change....I really do.

But I can't, no matter how much I try, I always end up depressed and fucking sad for no reason

Because this thing is making me be like this

And I'm not strong enough to fight it...that's why I need you

It's not easy to quit, when you start

And do what I didn't do....Listen!

P.S. Nie dlugo widze sie z moja kochana Beata!

K.C <3 

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