I would rather write in english now, so not everybody could understand at all.
I suck. My life suck. I'm a fuckin' dick. What the fuck do I became ? What went wrong ? I have no idea. I just want her to be happy and safe, but she's not with me. I did what i did. I regret. FUCK!! My parents are in next room and I am drinking by the computer.... FUCK!! If there's a chance that I can get back to normal I'll try to get her back to me. FUCK!! I'm both pissed and sad.... I hate situations like this. I hate them very fuckin' much!! If there would be only a chance.... Fuck that i need to drink right now. When i got drunk I'll go to sleep. When I'll wake up tomorow morning I'll be pissed much more than right now. ENOUGH!!