I feel like Jason is angry with me. I feel paranoid. I bet he's seeing that girl, Naomi or whatever. Or talking to Messina again. I'm tired of not being able to trust him, I just can't find the courage to because I'm terrified. My mum wants him to camp with us but then again, I'm terrified to ask. I feel like he's angry cos I had Adam over yesterday but like I'm almost positive Adam is gay so not like he's a threat and we're too much of friends. I don't think Jason will want to see me today, he'll cancel or find an excuse:( :( :( I just miss him. Do I? I don't know.