happy fucking birthday to me

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Happy fucking birthday to me

Honestly, I feel as if today will be shit because I feel like shit. But I hope it will be good. I'll spend it with Lisa and Anna. Anna gave me an idea to go to Molly Brown's for a dinner. Lisa, my mum, her and I are going there tonight. Ugh I fucking hate feelings. Lisa and Anna both like Kallum. Oops. I doubt either of them will back down. I know Anna doesn't want to hurt Lisa in the slightest but she wants to be happy too. Um um um um. I'm not over jason. Nope nope nope. I am not. I'm not gonna get over him for a long time. I feel as if austin was more of a friend than a relationship. Idk i feel horrible because I feel as if I used him as a reboud. I don't know if I did. I never planned to. I only wanted him to be happy. I really did have feelings for him. Now, I just miss him as a friend. I'm not even lying here. I probably would kiss him again etc but i doubt i'd get back with him. Ugh, jason called me gorgeous though and I near shat. I want to punch him. Ugh